Monday, November 28, 2011

Thanksgiving

Thanksgiving was great. The whole week was, the weekend too!
We baked tons of pumpkin bread, pie and pumpkin roll. My sister got into town late Wednesday night and we hung out for a little while.
Thursday we did breakfast. An egg/sausage casserole, ham slices, sticky cinnamon buns, home fries, homemade waffles and more! Plenty to munch on throughout the day while waiting for dinner. Dinner was AMAZING. My mom made a turkey, my husband smoked a turkey. We had my moms homemade stuffing, as well as some store bought. Sweet potato casserole, green bean casserole, sweet corn, fettuccine al burro, mashed potatoes, gravy, and rolls. Delicious!! Both turkeys were great, and my moms came out absolutely divine!!
I got to see an old friend
Saturday for a few hours and it wass really, really fun.
Then my sister and I got to do a little movie night and had a great time.
Anddddd - also got to sleep in on
Saturday and Sunday while my hubby watched the kids!
So awesome.
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Thursday, November 24, 2011

Rough day

Today was a rough one. It started out kind of slow, but by early afternoon I was getting into a good groove and really felt like I was motivated and getting things done. I was able to go get Meredith's 9 month photo/Christmas dress. I never seem to have good luck finding things in her size! Last time I searched for 9 month things, there wasn't much to choose from. I was worried that if I waited until after Black Friday I'd be totally in trouble. It's probably a good thing I went today since I needed a 12 month dress and pickings were indeed pretty slim. I found 3 potential options, sent photos to my mom and she helped me choose. Its a cute little red and white dress with flowers. Very Christmas-ey. Hopefully it will look on her. I think I need to get a Christmas headband/bow though.
We also managed to get more things done for tomorrow, so that's good.
Well, Logan's had a little bit of an attitude problem lately. Standard 2 year old problems. But while cleaning up his playroom, he was getting very rambunctious and swinging his toy truck around and smacked me pretty hard in the head. I definitely lost my temper. I felt very very guilty and bad about it later. But that definitely brought down my night. I tried to calm myself down and relax after the kids were in bed by wrapping some of the kids Christmas gifts and getting organized.
I'm reallllllly hoping Logan will be a little more calm and controlled tomorrow. I love him with all my heart and soul. And it breaks my heart when I have to yell at and reprimand him. He cries those big old puppy dog tears with his big sad eyes, and it kills me. No matter how bad he was.
Oh well.
Tomorrow is a new day. And one for which to be extra thankful.
Have a wonderful Thanksgiving everyone!!!
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Monday, November 21, 2011

Yay!!

What a relief!! After many failed efforts I have gotten my blackberry set up so that I can blog from it! I'm so happy!!
Going through their normal process of registering, then entering a code never worked!! Every time I would get a 404 Error! I've tried several times in the last few months. No luck.
So today I sat down at the desktop and googled possible solutions, and lo and behold, found an alternate way to get it set up! So don't mind my 2 little test blog posts to make sure things were working correctly.

In other news, Thursday is Thanksgiving!! Already! I'm not sure where the time went.
We won't be Black Friday shopping this year, no funds. We've done it the last couple years and it was actually pretty fun (albeit cold), and we got some great deals. But we are really scaling back this year, and everyone is only buying for the kids. So no BF shopping for us. Oh well.
So far I've got the kids a couple toys, and a few pairs of pajamas/clothes. I'm not sure how much of what else to get them. Most of Logan's old baby toys and gender neutral, so they will be handed down to Meredith (I mean, how many shape-sorting toys do you really need?? I think we have 4 already!). So I feel a little bad and am really not sure what to get her. I know she won't remember any of it. But it's her first Christmas.
And Logan has tons of clothes to last him until fall of next year, and tons of toys!! I've been trying to focus a little more on maybe books and movies for him. I'm sure no matter what he gets he will be thrilled.

What else have I been up to. Well I've finally gotten a few chances to use my Deep Covered Baker by Pampered Chef that I've had forever!! I made a roast which I thought came out good, but reviews were mixed, and a majority of the people weren't as excited as I was about it. Tonight I have a chicken cacciatore that I basically made last night. I threw it all together last night, and cooked it for about an hour. Threw the whole pot in the fridge, and am heating it for another 2 hours or so in the oven right now. Hopefully it comes out good.
I also made our pumpkin bread recipe last night x 8!! So that's a whole lotta pumpkin bread. But we make most of it in disposable foil pans for people to bring to work and whatnot. I made a huge nice bundt cake pan one for Thursday dessert. And some muffins which we've been munching on :-)
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Thursday, November 17, 2011

Sorry Blog

Sorry blog. I've been neglecting you.
Again.

I think I've just got myself involved in too many things, too quickly, all at once. And with little spare time!!
My mom and I have always been couponers, but over the summer we were trying more of the "extreme couponing". And it's been a little more time consuming. Definitely worth it. But time consuming. But we have managed to save 50% or more at a lot of our shopping trips. One trip I think we paid $160, but saved $180. So definitely worth it.
Then we got ourselves involved in selling stuff on Ebay. I/we've sold before, but it's been QUITE a while. It started because my brother purchased a storage unit at auction (a la Storage Wars). And we were helping him resell his items, and we would get 50% of the profits. We put some things on Craigslist, but things that were smaller/easy to ship, we found could better benefit on Ebay.
Then we started all kind of doing a spring cleaning, for lack of a better word, and getting rid of these we all don't need or use anymore. I went through both kids clothes, and decided what was worth keeping, and what wasn't, or I wasn't too attached too. I definitely was a little more attached and kept more of Meredith's clothes. Logan had totes and totes full of baby clothes, a lot of hand-me-downs, and things that just aren't quite my style. IF we have another baby, it's not stuff I'd really use again. So I ended up with a good amount of boys stuff to sell/get rid of. But I made sure I still have PLENTY of stuff for the next babe if we have one (Matt always said he didn't want more than 2 kids, but I'm really pulling for a 3rd in a couple years).
So Ebay-ing has taken up quite a bit of time in the last few weeks, but definitely been worth it. We've made decent money (although mom and i did spend some of it right back on Ebay buying things for the kids! haha).
I've also been trying to continue doing a better job of getting a home-cooked meal on the table every night. Definitely been slacking though as of late. I need to get my butt back into gear.

Then there's the slow sort of potty-training process we've been going through. It's a little hard to dive into it full speed since Logan still doesn't talk a lot right now. (He's 2 yrs, 3 1/2 months old). Once he can talk a little more I'm hoping we can communicate better on the whole talking about when he has to pee thing. For now, we are just sitting him on his potty a few times a day. About 50% of the time he will pee on the potty. I think the rest of the time he just doesn't have to go. Although lately he's been fighting us about going in the bathroom to go!! I have no idea why! I carried him kicking and screaming into the bathroom yesterday morning, but as soon as he sat down he peed! So I don't know what the tantrums are about. And he likes putting his big boy diapers on (Huggies slip-ons). He knows he pees, then I wipe him, then he puts a foot out for me to slide his slip-on on him.Hopefully he can continue and we can keep moving forward. I decided come January we are going to make a harder push on the potty-training. He will be 2 1/2 come January 11th, and I want to have him trained by the time he's 3. I always used to think kids were potty-trained before that, but lately I keep hearing more and more parents saying that they didn't start training until about 2 1/2 (especially with boys). So we'll see.

And then my sweet little baby girl finally cut her first tooth on 11/5. It's made me nostalgic. Yes, already. I've been thinking a lot when I lay in bed at night about my babies. And how they got big too fast. I try to sit and remember holding Logan as a little newborn in the middle of the night. I have a few really fond memories of some really great bonding time we had in the middle of the night a few times. But as time goes on, the picture in my head fades more and more. Yes, I have photos, but there's no replacement for those images you keep stored in your brain of times you loved. And I was frustrated as a new mom with him with the breastfeeding. I had a very low milk supply, no matter what I tried, and couldn't breastfeed him for long. Plus the emergency C section. I was very emotionally drained from feeling like I failed from both those things, and probably couldn't enjoy him the way I should have. And now I regret it. And similarly with Meredith. The first couple weeks with her were great. Then the colic set in. And believe me, I know it can be hard to understand if you haven't gone through it. I had a friend tell me about her fussy baby a few years before I got married, and I always used to think either she should have/could have been doing something differently, or that she was exaggerating. But no. If you have an infant with real, true, colic......it can be crazy. I was convinced there was something wrong with this poor child. Nothing seemed to soothe her. I even had her see a second pediatrician (who also verified that she was fine). I had prepared myself that something was wrong with her in some way. But they said no, probably just colic. And from 1 month old, until 5 months old, this poor child cried and cried. For HOURS every day and night. And it drained me. I had help, but it drained me. And I was making a better attempt at breastfeeding longer this time. They advised I do breastfeeding and formula when she was a newborn because of how quickly she lost weight (due to my slow milk production).So I tried like heck to breastfeed that baby as much as possible (and pump too). I went about 3 days with an hours sleep one time. And I can only remember feeling like I wasn't going to survive. People would say, it normally starts going away at 3 months old. So I wished she'd be 3 months old. People would say, it will go away when she's 4 months old, so I wished for 4 months old. And I wished away her newbornness.... If I could go back in time I'd find a way to change it all. Some way to make it work better. Some way to be more tolerant. Some way to enjoy my infant sweet baby girl.
Because now.... she's just not a newborn anymore. She's so big. So different. And I feel like once again, I missed some of her childhood. And I get angry at myself for that. If I could turn back the hands of time, I would. But I guess that's why they say hindsight is 20/20.

But looking forward, and enjoying every minute of everyday is hard. But I am trying. I am making a better effort. Even in those pull-you-hair-out moments when the kids are screaming, and everyone needs to eat and be changed all at once. I am trying to take in every second. Because this is it. This is their childhood. And it is going by so quickly. And I'm such an emotional sap that I'm always worried about them getting older on me too fast.
And with Thanksgiving being next week, I am definitely trying to be more thankful. And so far, I think it's working.
Because I am truly blessed. I have 2 happy, healthy, sweet kids. And a loving husband. And amazing family. And some of the best friends anyone could ever ask for. A roof over our heads. And food to eat.

So that's it. That's life. And it's hard, and exhausting, and amazing, and wonderful.
I'm going to try and blog more (I know, I know, I always say that). But I'm also trying to enjoy my kids and life more. So I may not make it on here as much as I would like. We shall see.

Monday, October 10, 2011

Disheartened

Well, I am feeling a little more disheartened. I tried using a few blogging aides to expand my blog, but haven't been able to donate as much time as I had wanted.
So I had been taking advantage of the whole "next blog" button on the top to search through public blogs and find other moms/families with similar backgrounds or interests as me.
While commenting on one I had chosen to follow today, I realized it looked like my introductory message had been deleted by the owner. I can only assume she w not a fan of a stranger being on h blog :-( and now i feel like a creep
I had left a message on the blogs I had chosen to follow, just saying, hi, my name is Tiffany, I found your blog while searching through other mom blogs and wanted to say hi.
Oh well I guess.
Even though rejection by people you don't even know sucks too.

10/10/11

Yay! Second post in one day!
Although I still can't remember most of what I'd been thinking about blogging about these past few weeks.
I've been slacking a little bit in the past few weeks on making a homemade dinner each night. Due partly because we are getting low on meat. We have one of those vacuum food sealers, so we buy a lot of things in bulk and then repackage it and freeze it. We did a huge shopping trip back in lie April or May and bought some meat by the case at Sam's Club. If you buy it by the case they give you an even deeper discounted price. So we had bought a case of ground beef, and a case of boneless, skinless chicken breasts. We stIll have quite a bit of ground beef, but we are the very last few packages of our chicken. We are also just about out of pork (chops, roasts, etc). So that is making planning dinners a little bit harder as well. I've been trying to do a lot more with the ground beef since we still have so much of it, but we have some picky eaters and any recipes I find never seem to work. I found a recipe online and made Swedish meatballs for the first time yesterday. I served them over egg noodles, with corn and green beans the side. Myself and my hubby liked it, Logan ate his noodles and gravy, but not much of his meatball. My dad thought it was okay, but my mom didn't really care for the gravy. Tonight I'm making just regular old fashioned spaghetti and meatballs with red sauce. So it's meatballs 2 nights in a row, but totally different recipes. Hopefully I can get a couple hundred dollars extra and head back over to Sam's Club and get more chicken and maybe more pork too. It was great to not have to worry about buying meat for the last 6 or so months!!
Anyway, what else is going on. We have Logan's halloween costume, and Meredith's is being shipped. Logan is going to be Buzz Lightyear. He is really into Toy Story right now. We had bought a portable DVD player, and brought it with us on our trip to NJ last month for the car. For the first time he really sat and watched entire movies. And for Meredith, my mom found a cute flower costume online "baby blossom" it's called. Hopefully it looks cute on her.
Logan is starting to talk a lot more, but is definitely not where I want him to be. His doctor wasn't concerned at his 2 year checkup in July, but most of the other moms I know that have kids his age or younger or saying a lot more words and talking a lot more clearly. I had the pediatrician give me some information on a speech therapist just in case. I have decided if he isn't really talking more and better by January (when he'll be 2 1/2), then I will see about scheduling an appointment with someone. I don't want to be one of those pushy and overly worried parents, but i don't want to be overlooking anything that might be holding him back. I do find myself getting a little embarrassed sometimes at his lack of speech. I don't want other parents thinking I'm babying him or not doing a good job parenting.

I feel bad

So I feel pretty terrible.
I started this new blog promising myself I'd paid more attention to it in ways I never did my old blog.
It's a little hard when I don't have many followers though (ie-1).
Not that that's WHY I'm doing this. I'm doing it for me, an outlet for everything I think and am going through. And I wanted to start fresh. I didn't really want most of the "friends" from high school and other moms I know on here just yet. I want totally new eyes and opinions. Some of the people I know are rather judgey. But I'm going to try harder from here on out. I'm not even really sure where I left off or what's been going on since I last wrote.
Let's start with Meredith I guess. She is 7 1/2 months old, and I don't know where the time went. If it goes fast with your first child, it goes LIGHTSPEED with the second!! I can still remember and feel sometimes being pregnant with her just a second ago......crazy. At her 6 month checkup they told me she was 50th percentile for weight, and 75th percentile for height. Well, she is currently wearing 9 month clothing, and has just jumped into 12 month pajamas!! At first I was just factoring in the weight, and so confused why she seemed to be outgrowing everything so quickly, when 50th percentile is absolutely average, but then last night my mom and I remembered how long/tall she is for her age, and I'm sure that's got a lot to do with it! Crazy still. My sweet little baby is getting too big too fast!!
She started her first foods on 7/19/11-Rice cereal. Then throughout July, August and even September we did the whole adding one new food/ingredient at a time. I'm sure I'm more of a worrywart about it then need be, but I always was worried about a bad reaction to something. After the individual foods with only one ingredient though, you have the ones like "Banana Plum Grape." Well, they make banana in a 1st food, but don't make plum or grape in a 1st food! So when you do that, you're really adding TWO new things at once to her diet. So I slowly integrated all those types of foods too, even though I am getting a feeling most moms don't worry about that type of thing once they get through those single-ingredient first foods. So by the end of September she had gotten through pretty much anything I wanted to introduce singly.
Rice cereal
Green Beans
Prunes
Apples
Peas
Squash
Carrots
Pears
Mango
Mixed Grain Cereal
Kiwi
Banana
Peaches
Spinach
Sweet Potatoes
Cinnamon
Pumpkin
"Mixed Berry"
Raspberry
Cherries
Apricots
Pineapple
Pomegranate
Corn

Then I had some organic baby food I had bought at a really cheap price with some different type of ingredients like "Yumberry"!


Now I just recently started her on the second foods dinner. I am doing the same dinner, 2 days in a row while I introduce them also. So far she's had:
Vegetable Beef
Apples and Chicken
Sweet Potatoes and Turkey
Turkey Rice (which is the first food ever that she didn't really seem to care for)
and tonight she tries Chicken Noodle.

So she's doing really great with eating it seems. A very good eater most of the time.
And she is a rolling maniac!!! Mostly likes to go from her belly to her back, but not a big fan of going vice versa.

Well I have to run for now as both kids need a diaper change. I hope to be able to hope back on here later.

Friday, September 16, 2011

9/16/11

I'm going to start a post now, but think I will have to finish later.
I have a feeling I will be getting interrupted shortly, and won't have much privacy to write.I hate when I feel like someone is watching me or staring over my shoulder while I am doing things online. Even if it's not something secretive or anything, I still just hate that 'being watched' feeling.

Well my aunt came to visit to stay with us for just a couple days to help out. My dad's surgery is today at 2. He's having a resection done to take out several inches of his intestines at 2pm.

**this is where I had to stop earlier**


Okay, continuation!
His surgery is done, things appear to have gone well. He is in recovery now! He will probably be in the hospital until at least Tuesday.


Okay, what else to catch up on?
Our trip?
We left for NJ at about 9:15am on Friday 9/9/11. My mom, myself, my husband, and both kids. Overall the trip wasn't too horrible. Although it can be challenging managing the diaper changes and diaper bags in and out of restrooms or restaurants. It's like change one kid, okay, now let's switch kids so I can change the next one! Then okay, this person hold a kid so this adult can pee, etc, etc.!
So we stayed at my Aunt Lynn and Uncle Marty's house. It was nice to have a chance to visit and whatnot, although I wish we could've stayed longer.
The wedding was Saturday afternoon at a church, and was very nice. And the reception followed a couple of hours later at a Point Pleasant Yacht Club. The reception was awesome, Danielle and Andrew did a great job. They had a really nice cocktail hour with hot and cold passed hors' deurves, and a little made to order pasta station, a little made to order stir fry station, and an cold station with crostini and bruschetta topping, olives, fresh mozzarella
Then for dinner they did a buffet, which was actually really great! Buffets get a bad wrap, but when you go to a wedding you want to eat and drink and celebrate!! And I did go up twice, no shame here! They had some kind of like a sweet and sour pork, which was okay, a DELICIOUS filet mignon espagnole, a specialty dish of the club called chicken crystal, eggplant rollitini which was delicious, spanish paella-I'm not big on seafood, so I just took the rice and veggies, and it was really good!, some kind of delicious roasted potatoes. There were other things too, I just can't remember! Their cake was also delicious. One of the best wedding cakes I've tasted. I've been to several weddings where the brides said they were having these amazing cakes, and they were pretty gross/bad. Cake matters a lot to me, since I do so much baking and was/am a cake decorator.
Then Sunday we just visited with some family and friends. My aunt doesn't allow smoking in her house, so even though it was a little drab and dreary, we let Logan go outside when some adults were outside smoking. He managed to fall off/knock over on himself a very heavy outdoor bench. He cried, but seemed okay afterward. Well the next day he was walking funny. I took him to the urgent care/hospital as soon as we got home Monday night, they did X-rays, and said it looks okay, but if he was still walking funny in a week to take him to his primary care doctor. Well, he's still walking funny, and now isn't walking flat-footed, only on his tiptoes. So I think we will be making a phone call to the doctor on Monday morning. Never a dull moment-I tell ya!!

Dinner tonight is just a simple pot of italian sausage meat sauce, and I have a pot of hot water on. Whenever my mom comes home from the hospital I will throw the pasta in. We figured this was an easy meal that could just sit on the stove to cook until whenever we were ready to eat. Both kids are currently napping (yes! at the same time!!) which has given me a nice break to catch my breath and get a few things done. I wasn't sure I was going to get that lucky though, since Logan didn't sleep well last night, got up early this morning, and fell asleep in his playroom early this afternoon!! He didn't sleep long, but I thought "oh crap,  if he slept in the playroom, will he still take a real nap in his crib later?!" Well, he went down late, but it seems to have worked!!

Wednesday, September 14, 2011

ughhhhh

Things have been crazy. I will barely even have time to update right now, but wanted to jot down a little something since it's been so many days since I last wrote.
We left Friday for NJ, to go to my friend Danielle's wedding, it was beautiful, I'll write more about that when I have time. We got back to Ohio about 7pm-ish on Monday. The kids were pretty good for the most part. And my family was awesome about watching them.
Came home to a bit of a dirty house/chaos. Then to top it all off my dad is sick again/still. They admitted him after my mom took him to the ER today. They are going to do surgery Friday to do a resection, in hopes that they can contain/cut out the bad part of his bowel/intestines to get the diverticulitis under control.

Friday, September 9, 2011

9/9/11

I haven't slept very well the last 2-3 nights, but I don't know if I'll be able to sleep tonight! I am anxious/nervous. I feel like a little kid the night before Christmas.
We leave in the morning for our trip to NJ for my good friend's wedding on Saturday. I would like to leave at 9am, but our goal is NO LATER than 10am. Wish me luck.
I'm a little nervous taking both kids on a trip that is 8 hours long. I think we will be okay though. We have a portable DVD player for Logan, and he is generally good on car rides. So as long as Meredith doesn't get needy and want to be held, I think we will be okay. It will be me, my hubby, mom, and the 2 kids. The car is pretty much packed except for the last minute items. And when I say packed, haha, I mean PACKED! That bad boy is stuffed with 3 suitcases, a stroller, 2 pack n plays, a booster seat, 2 big bags of snacks/toys, a bag of the babies food, a foam changing pad, a cooler, and all the other little stuff!! I think we will be okay, and I don't think we've forgotten anything major.
So hopefully all will go as planned! I'm going to try and relax and go with the flow, but I always get a little anxious about the kids misbehaving or forgetting something of theirs. I hate to be that unprepared mom!

Thursday, September 8, 2011

9/8/11

Crazy day today.

My father has diverticulitis. It has been causing him a LOT of problems recently. He's been to the ER 7 times since May. Either just because of the extreme pain, or a few times because of passing out (from pain/dehydration). Well, today made trip #8. I was woken from a dead sleep by a loud thumping noise from upstairs (I slept downstairs on the couch since Meredith fell asleep on the first floor). I knew immediately what it must've been since, just hours prior we got my father to admit he hadn't been feeling well since Saturday. Then I heard what must've been my mom jumping out of bed. So I went downstairs to get my brother to assist (my husband was already at work). And lo and behold, yes, he had apparently gone to get up out of bed and lost consciousness for a minute (also not good when that happens because he has extreme back issues). So I called 911 for an ambulance, because we're never sure anymore if we should move him or not. Late this afternoon they decide to admit him. His PCP and his gastro doctor decided to keep him for observation. Usually all they can really say is that it's a divert. flare-up, and they give him IV fluids, and put him on antibiotics to help clear it up. Well, usually it seems shortly after he goes off the antibiotics, he gets sick again. So no one really ever has any answers!! And this is all just on top of another huge pile of mess, because my parents have no health insurance. My dad found in January that he was both losing his job, and that he had kidney cancer. So he became unemployed, and short one kidney. And things haven't really seemed to get better at all so far this year. I feel like we could really use a break already. I can't dare express any of these feelings on a network like Facebook, because some ass always ends up being a jerk and saying all I do is complain, or how it could be worse. Obviously it could always be worse.....but right now it's pretty bad. *sigh*

Wednesday, September 7, 2011

9/6/11

Yesterday was another kind of blah day.
Didn't have a whole lot planned.
Went with my sister and my mom to get my mom something to wear for the wedding this weekend. Was REALLY disappointed in the selection at kohls. They had items on mannequins that they didn't even have left in stock! The store was a mess. The dress selection in general sucked.
We had a turkey picatta with fettuccine for dinner yesterday, another new recipe. It wasn't terrible, but I think if we make it again I may adjust some of the ingredients.
Today my sister and my brothers girlfriend went home. They were both visiting for the weekend. It always sucks when my sister has to go back to Indiana. I wish she lived closer. My sister lives in Indianapolis, and Katy lives in Canal Winchester, which is about halfway to our house, so my sister just picked her up on the way here, and dropped her off on the way home.
I've really been loving on my kids and thinking a lot about them lately.
I found out over the weekend, that this girl my sister went to school withs infant daughter died last week, supposedly from SIDS. I met her, and her daughter Jordyn once. And the fact that this sweet 3 month old baby is actually dead is consuming me. I have always had issue with death, and dealing witness it. And the fact that a baby I was smiling at, and was making faces at me, just 3 weeks ago, is now.....not here....is just a hard concept to grasp. I can't stop thinking about it. I can't stop thinking about a dead baby. Is that sick? What is wrong with me? I feel like I couldn't handle something like that. I don't know how i would go on if something happened to one of my kids. I don't think I am built strong enough for something lie that. Since Meredith was born especially, I have had nightmares, and thoughts about something bad happening to my kids. Does that make me a freak? Is it normal to have bad dreams about bad things happening to your kids? I love them so damn much I can't even explain. The thought that anything ever, could happen to them frightens me dearly. I know, I know, this is all just part of being a mother. But i have become overly paranoid about something happening to them. I suppose it can only subside with time. I know I'll always worry about them. But i hope some of this anxiety goes away soon.



Completely random sidenote-Tonight's dinner was eggplant parm and pasta. I think tomorrow will be a free-for-all night since we've been doing so much homemade cooking lately. Time for a break

Monday, September 5, 2011

9/5/11

So today was a bit of a blah day.
I haven't really gotten much/very good sleep the last say 5 nights or so. So I got up with the kids this morning, got them situated/fed breakfast, then told my hubby i pretty much HAD to go lay back down. I've been pretty tired lately, and sometimes I am getting these pretty bad headache/migraines. I'm not sure if it's even related to being tired, but they are just very random and weird. So I laid back down at about 10am, and bless his heart my hubby didn't wake me up until 1pm!! It was only 3 hours, but it made a HUGE difference. I was like a new person. I slept SOLIDLY the whole 3 hours. It was nice.

I did feel a bit behind when I got up though. Even though we didn't really have much planned or to do. My sister and my brother's girlfriend are visiting, so I had planned to make a nice dinner. It was a first time recipe, so I was pretty nervous. We definitely ate a lot later than I had planned, but I'm happy to announce the food came out good. It was a modified recipe I had seen on the food network for Tarragon chicken. It was delicious. You basically brown the chicken in oil, after you dredge it in flour/salt/pepper, then remove the chicken, then cook some pearl or cippolini onions and sliced garlic in the pain, then deglaze it with white wine, add chicken broth, tarragon (I used dry-not fresh, and didn't use as much as they suggested), cook that down to reduce. In the original recipe you return the chicken to the pan, while the sauce simmers and reduces. But I was making such a large batch of it, I had put the chicken on a tray in the oven to finish cooking, and it still turned out good. You simmer the sauce a little while, then add a few tbsp of flour to 1/3 cup of chicken broth, whisk it together, then add it to the sauce to thicken it, then add a few tbsps of butter!! I also made fresh green beans, which I never have before. Boiled them in salted water. Let then dry/drain in a colander. Then you brown some sliced garlic in olive oil, add the green beans and saute for a few minutes. They were delicious. I also made broccoli with cheese sauce, and a chicken flavored rice. So happy it came out well and everyone liked it.

Then I also made a gooey butter cake after dinner. I tried a small sliver, and it's good, but VERY sweet. If I make the same recipe again I won't use as much powdered sugar in it. Oh well though, you live and you learn.

Meredith's been a little fussy again lately. Not sure if maybe it's still just her body (IE-constipation/gas) adjusting to the new foods, or if it's teething. She's been drooling a lot, but we can't feel anything cut through the gums yet. She's just a little over 6 months old now. I think by now Logan had already had a few teeth cut through the gums. I've been wanting to pull his baby book out and check. Maybe I'll do that tomorrow.

Friday, September 2, 2011

9/2/11

Well, didn't succeed at getting a real dinner on the table yesterday, oh well, it happens. Everything I kind of looked at real quick to defrost and make, we were missing some of the ingredients for, and I wasn't wanting to go shopping. So it was a free-for-all night. I did make the hubby some beef potpies (homemade from months prior, but i vacuum sealed them and froze them) for when he got off work.
Tonight though, we had a real dinner!! And it was good! First time, new recipe.
I doctored up a recipe I got on the back of a Reynolds Wrap Bags box.
I uses the plastic Reynolds cooking bags, (place it in a large baking dish) and a 2-3 lb bottom round roast. Put that in the bag, along with 1.5 lbs of those tiny re potatoes, a 1 lb bag of peeled baby carrots, and slices one large onion, separated the slices and sprinkled them around the bag. Pour in 1 cup water. Then sprinkle over the roast and veggies in the bag, 2 envelopes of onion soup mix, and then sprinkle over it all 1/4 cup of flour. Add about a 1/8 to 1/4 teaspoon of pepper over the top as well.
Bake in 350 degree oven for 2 hrs.
It came out delicious!!
The veggies were tender but not mushy, and coated in the flour/onion soup mixture and almost had a caramelized flavor/texture to them! The meat was a little over done, the original recipe called to cook for 2.5 hrs, And I cooked mine about 2.25 hrs. So that's why i suggest only cooking it for 2 hrs. I served it with some Knorr sides beef noodles on the side, and peas to round out a full large meal. Not too shabby.
Took Logan and hubby for haircuts today. Logan's only had about maybe 5-6 haircuts in his life so far. He was okay at like his first 2 or so. Then the last few times we took him, he really threw a fit, cried and everything. I was so proud of him today though. He did awesome. No tears. They put the apron thing around him, and he started whining a little bit. And I remembered on the tv show Max and Ruby, try put a cape on Max, and were calling him super bunny. And that day I loosely tied a blanket around him, and called him super bunny too. And he loved it, thought it was hysterical. So as soon as the stylist was getting him ready, I started talking about Max and Ruby, and talking about super bunny. He seemed to get distracted enough, stopped getting upset. From there on out he was so well behaved! She used both the clippers and scissors and he was fairly good the whole time. Such a relief. And he looks so handsome and grown up with his hair freshly cut.

Thursday, September 1, 2011

9/1/11

Here we are, into September already!!
In Ohio our Winters are long and cold, so we beg for summer. And Summer came with a vengeance. It was HOT. And we all complained of course. But now that Summer is slowly coming to a close I find myself a little sad and wistful of it's impending absence. I will try to enjoy Fall a little better than I did Summer!

Today was kind of a lazy day. I feel like I didn't get a whole lot done, but I guess feeding and changing 2 kids is a chore in and of itself. Logan had pizza (and half a chicken nugget) for lunch and made a total mess. I caught myself getting frustrated for a minute but quickly and easily let it go. And I went the cheap and easy route for dinner. Hamburger Helper. I'm not proud, and it sure doesn't really go with my concept of trying to get a homemade dinner on the table more often. But it was dinner. It was an italian shells and cheese one. And Logan loves pasta, so I thought he'd be all over it. But he wasn't. In fact he was being a bit of a brat, and I'm not even sure if he tried one bite! So I heated up some leftover chicken nugget. He took a few bites, but mainly played with them. In the end, he asked for a banana, and actually ended up eating 2 whole bananas. Which, coincidentally is also what his sister had. She just finished up her 3rd day of bananas. Tomorrow we are moving onto peaches.
Logan has been interacting a little bit more with Meredith lately. And if she sees him dancing or making faces, she always laughs. It's so cute. This morning he was doing this dance, from Yo Gabba Gabba, this Get The Wiggles Out song, and he dances like crazy and she cracked up. It was great. I'm hoping to catch him doing it on video. Then at lunch, he tried to feed her a chicken nugget and his pizza. She was sitting right in front of him, on grandma's lap, and he put it right up by/on her mouth. It's so sweet and heartmelting and precious you can't even yell at him. We tried to explain she's too little, and he didn't seem to get upset. I'm just hoping he won't try to do anything like that if they are ever alone together. I worry constantly about things like that.
Meredith was really playing around with her bedtime bottle, and doing this thing she does while on your lap, where she like pushes her feet against you, and like pushes her head up and off your lap. Almost like so she can drink with her head upside down. I found myself getting extremely aggravated. I just wanted her to finish so I could get her down for bed, since we've been trying to get her in bed a little earlier and adjust her schedule. And right as I was about to get really ticked off, she started laughing at me. I mean totally cracking up. My angry face must've been pretty funny. I HATE when I get upset or frustrated with her. And after I do I feel so terrible. She is growing SO fast, and I already get upset about her newborn days being gone. How can I get upset with her?? I spent way too much time when she was a newborn with her colic being upset and frustrated. I won't let myself do it now. I already wish I could redo her infancy. I would shut up and stop complaining. I would get over the fact that I was tired and just deal with it and drink another cup of coffee!! Because now it's gone. And I feel like I missed out on her newborn days. I feel a little cheated because of the colic, but in a way it's partially my own fault for letting the colic win. C'est La Vie I guess.

My sister, Heather is coming home to visit from Indiana this weekend. She lives and works there, where she got a job after college at Ball State. I'm excited because I have to give her her long overdue birthday gift. Her birthday was 6/27, but finances were a little tight then, and I had already decided I was buying her a Kindle. So I waited, and was able to get it the first week in August. I didn't want to take the chance on shipping it out there though, so I just waited, knowing she'd be home again this weekend.


And next week, my mom, husband, and both kids and I are making the drive out to NJ for my good friends wedding. Should be interesting! I'm a little nervous. I think we are well prepared though. We already packed the kids suitcases though for the most part, just a lot of little odds and ends last minute type stuff to throw in the night before/day of. It's just worrysome traveling with a toddler and a baby. Although I know, I know, most things, if forgotten can be bought at the store. I think as long as we have my son's blanket, we will be fine!! That I couldn't replace. :-)

I should probably get to bed, it's pretty late. I actually took a nap today though, which is probably the only reason I'm even awake right now!
I haven't pulled anything out of the freezer or decided what to make for dinner tomorrow. I can't seem to make a decision. Maybe it will be a free-for-all, can of soup or frozen pizza type of day. Laziness strikes yet again. Not totally my fault though, we really need to go to the store. I'm out of what I consider to be essentials like potatoes, and onions. We've also eaten a lot of ground beef lately, so I feel like I shouldn't cook that. Or this weekend, my brother's girlfriend is coming here with my sister (she's friends with her also), and she doesn't really eat red meat, so I think we're having chicken on both Saturday and Sunday (I have been dying to try a variation of a Tarragon Chicken I saw on the Food Network or Cooking Channel, I forget which). So I feel like chicken is out for tomorrow. We have some pork, but we're getting a little low, and I was too lazy earlier to dig through the freezer and see what was in there. Perhaps if I get up early enough I can dig through and defrost something. We shall see.

Monday, August 29, 2011

Meredith's 6 month checkup

My little princess is doing great! She is 16.23 lbs, which is right in the 50th percentile, and she is 26.5 inches long which puts her in the 75th percentile for height! Hopefully she will be taller than mommy :-)
Today we started bananas! So far she has had, regular single grain rice cereal, green beans, prunes, apples, squash, carrots, pears, mangos, mixed grain cereal, and kiwi! She's doing so great with eating, and seems to enjoy almost all the foods she's been given so far :-)

It has felt like I've been going nonstop all day today. I just need a little time to breathe and clear my head. Since dinner got a late start (chicken and gravy over rice), I was going to feed Logan something different so he could eat since what I was making wasn't done yet, and it was already 6pm. So I decided to spoil him a bit, and I played a little game of, finish off the open bags of things in the freezer. I came up with 6 pieces of popcorn chicken, 7 sausage pizza rolls, and a handful of Hot Pocket brand snackers-loaded potato bites. Popped them all in the oven for him. I thought he'd be ecstatic, since he has recently discovered and found out he loves pizza rolls. He wasn't as excited as I though, and actually threw a fit wanting the rice I made once he saw his uncle take (and spill some all over the counter) some. So I caved and gave him a nice messy bowl of rice with gravy. And a mess he sure did make. This is kind of what I was trying to avoid since my energy level had pretty much plummeted. By the time he was done eating I was getting pretty aggravated. He started out eating nice, but then that soon turned into quite a nice mess-making extravaganza! Oh well. He is cleaned up now, and down in his playroom in the basement, happily making a bigger disaster and watching Backyardigans. Thankfully, Meredith is sleeping at the moment, so that gives me a minute to relax (and clean up from dinner-yay!) She was pretty fussy right before she ate dinner, so I'm really hoping that the shots she got today aren't going to make her super-fussy. Keeping my fingers crossed!
Well, I better go finish scrubbing the dinner dishes and whatnot before Meredith wakes up. Hope I am not jinxing myself by saying that!
Both kids could also use a bath tonight, and since daddy's working late, it's all on me. I better find some energy somewhere, because at the moment I just don't have it!


8/29/11

We have Meredith's 6 month checkup this afternoon. It's so hard to believe she is already 6 months old! It goes by fast with your first child, but even faster with the second/when you have two I think!!
It seems like just yesterday I was dealing with aggravating ob/gyn appointments, and mixed feelings over our VBAC miscommunication (a story I'll post another day.) And it seems like it was just yesterday we were taking that nerve-wracking drive to the hospital for the scheduled c-section. Feeling more nervous than I did with Logan even.
And now here we are. Pregnancy long gone, delivery long gone, even newborn long gone. With my beautiful, chunky, silly baby girl who is growing too fast. She was EXTREMELY colicky, and I didn't get to enjoy her newborn-ness the way I should have/would have liked to. I already yearn to have that time back. when she got to be about 4 weeks old, the colic kicked in, and we would go through days and nights of just inconsolable screaming. There was very little, if anything, we could do to make her feel better. This has subsided since late July. It may be coincidence, but she started to get better right around the time we started cereal/baby foods.
But here we are, 6 months and 5 days old. She will have a normal checkup, and I think maybe 2 shots. They always tell me how great she looks at all her appointments, so I'm sure this will be pretty routine. I don't really have any concerns or questions, so hopefully I can get in and out fairly quickly.

Logan

My sweet baby Logan is 2 years old.
I'm not really sure where the time went.

He is probably hitting his "terrible two's," although some of it may be in part due to a sinus infection he's had lingering.
He was always such a good baby to go out places. He would go out with me and grandma shopping for hours ever since he was a newborn. We got him very used to being out in public and behaving. However lately we've been making a bit of a scene. Especially when it's time to get in our carseat to go somewhere or leave somewhere! I mean a  kicking, screaming, freaking out fight. So frustrating. I hope it's a phase that goes away quickly.
He's also always been a very good eater. A little more picky lately, but still better than most toddlers from what I hear. LOVE LOVE LOVES bananas! And suddenly now cheese too! He would never really eat 'cold' items. We couldn't make him a sandwich, or give him like deli meats like cold ham, or turkey. He is weird about even ice cream and whatnot. But one day he had a piece of cheese, and has been hooked since. So hopefully he can expand his foodbase even more now!
He watches a good amount of tv when he plays with his toys (terrible mom i am, i know. whatever.) He doesn't watch anything bad, or violent. He watches Nick Jr. mostly, although it used to be Sprout. And he's not glued aimlessly to the tv. It's usually just on while he plays with his toys and books. He does however love Ni-Hao Kai-lan, Bubble Guppies, Backyardigans.....he's kind of into Diego and Dora, and The Fresh Beat Band. He's started dancing a lot recently, and I'll catch him dancing to the opening credits for the Fresh Beat Band (although he often loses interest soon after), and I've seen him dance to the little songs on Ni-Hao. It's very cute. He went through a short "dancing" phase before he turned 2, and I got a great long video of him dancing to Backyardigans "Ranch Hands From Outer Space." But then he stopped dancing for a few months. And now, suddenly, he's getting very into the music and dancing again. It's adorable, and I'll have to try to get more pictures and video. I always mean to capture things like this on video, before he outgrows these phases. But sometimes I forget, or can never get the timing right. I just want to always be able to remember these amazing, adorable moments in his life! 2 years has already gone by so fast, and soon, I fear, I won't feel like he's my baby anymore. Sometimes mom and I look at him, and just say wow, he's such a big boy now! It's crazy.
Hmmm...what else does he do? I'm trying to think of little milestones and achievements of his. He has a fascination right now with picking out his own shoes. He also threw a FIT one day, and refused to wear the shirt my mom picked out for him. She had to fight him, and then finally get a different shirt!! My mom says it's my fault because I had been letting him choose pajamas, haha. I have continued that anyway though, although he does not get a choice out of everything. I give him 2 options, and ask him which he'd like to wear. I don't want him to be a spoiled brat, but at the same time I want him to learn to make decisions and choose things on his own. He also isn't talking a whole lot yet, so I'm hoping to help prompt some speech through this decision-making. He says mama, dada, papa, hotdog, all done, he used to say bye but doesnt anymore, he also used to say hi but doesnt anymore. He can say go, but recently it's sounded more like do/doe. He says baba, and also what sounds like baby. I know there's other things, but I can't think of them right now.
I know many kids younger than him, or his age who are speaking a lot more than he is. But I asked the doctor at his 2 yr checkup last month, and she doesn't seem to be concerned right now. He's constantly babbling and chattering away to himself, so she's sure he will pick it up soon. My mom also thinks I'm overly worried. I just don't want to be that mother with the kid who isn't talking, and having other people think I did my child some disservice, you know?
We were going to work on potty-training, but the communication barrier has been a little bit of an issue there. Several months ago we put him on the potty several days in a row, and he went a few times each day. After a few days though he seemed to get upset, and not want to sit anymore, so we decided to take a break. I didn't want him to associate going to the bathroom/potty with any kind of upsetting/angry feelings, so I felt maybe we should wait longer. I think he knows the potty is for peeing on, I just don't think we're quite ready to dive in head first to true potty-training yet.
Tonight during dinner he pulled his sister's highchair close to his chair, and they were so cute together. He was chattering a little, and making gestures and looking at her, and she was just laughing away. I can tell he really adores her, although he doesn't get to interact quite too much yet because she's still so little. I can't wait until she's a little bigger and they can really play together.
He has also suddenly, at the age of 2, developed an addiction to his blanket!! When we switched out his baby bedding set for a different blanket, and got rid of the crib bumpers and "comforter" blanket that came with the set, I bought him a new Winne the Pooh blanket. He always liked it, it's soft, a little fuzzy, but no real affinity to it. In the last month or so, he has suddenly become attached to it! He saw my mom take it out of the washing machine one day while he was in his playroom, and desperately wanted it!! It was still wet though, and had to go in the dryer. Several times when waking up from a nap cranky, he insisted on bringing it down with him. One day daddy brought him up for a nap, and didn't realize his blanket was on the dining room table, folded, from being washed. The child would not nap!! When we realized our error, grandma brought it up to him, and he went right to sleep. So funny. I'm not sure why he's suddenly so attached!!

Sunday, August 28, 2011

For those who might be wondering who the heck I am....

I started searching for other similar blogs to "follow." And really, hoping some may follow me as well. I've had a hard/bad time reconnecting with people from, say high school and such, who are moms now. A lot of them are very different from me, and some have even caused severe drama in my life. Most of my close friends are not mothers, most aren't even married. I love them dearly, but we are on very different life paths.
I was kind of hoping to find new "friends" and moms who I can connect with for advice, support, etc.
After searching around I found that allegedly clicking on the "Next Blog" button on here is supposed to take you to other public blogs that are similar to your own/own interests. I found that many clicks took me to people NOTHING like me, and who are interested in NOTHING I am. But along the way I found a few that intrigued me. If they looked like nice people whom I might have something in common with, I read further and decided to "follow" a few people. Hopefully you ladies won't think I'm some creep. I'm just looking for a real mom group of people with whom I can celebrate and commiserate. Hopefully, as my journey through motherhood continues, I can find more moms with kids my children can play with, and who are also women who are likeminded and I enjoy spending time with. But for now, I want to document my life and try to remain honest and not worried about what people who already know me may think or have to say.

8/28/11

Got to sleep in today a little. Matt watches the kids this morning for a bit. It was nice because I'm usually up pretty late with Meredith for her last feeding of the day.
We got a bunch of eggplant at the Farmer's Market yesterday, so I spent several hours peeling, slicing, breading and frying them up. My mom is bagging them up to freeze as we speak. They were a great price, and now we'll have eggplant all ready to go for eggplant parm all winter.
We had NY Strip steaks for dinner, baked potatoes, broccoli with cheese sauce, garlic butter noodles. Delicious. I am stuffed. Although I'm sure it won't last long.
I went on a diet right after I delivered Meredith. I actually landed at 10 lbs less than I was when I conceived her! So it's great to weigh LESS than you did before you got pregnant. Except at that time I was still packing on baby weight I never lost from Logan. (We conceived Meredith when Logan was 11 months old. And I hadn't done a very good job of trying to get the excess weight off from his pregnancy.)
So while it's nice to be a little lighter than I was last summer, it's still nowhere near where I want to be. I would like to lose at least 25 more pounds. I think I can do it by next spring. I'm not rushing myself like I have in the past. I did good right after I had Meredith but over the summer I've really been doing a ton of snacking. Staying up late hasn't helped. I'm a night person to begin with, so the late night eating is definitely helping me stay chubby I'm sure. Oh well. It sounds crazy to diet over the winter/holidays, but I'm really really going to try to do it. Especially because even if we have another baby, it won't be for another couple years. So it would be nice to be thin/healthy for a couple years!! So knowing we won't consider having another baby for a little while, I won't be able to talk myself out of dieting, haha.
I'm hoping to get some nice down time and relax this evening. It's almost Logan's bedtime. He goes to bed about 9pm. And typically he'll sleep until about 8am-9am. So it's almost time to get him all suited up and ready for bed. Then hopefully Meredith will behave and play nice and I can get a chance to watch one of the Netflix movies that we've had here with my mom. It's either Angels & Demons, or Limitless. I think I'd prefer to watch Limitless, but I'm going to let mom choose. We watched the Da Vinci Code together like, gosh, over a year ago, and have been meaning to see the second one since then. I'm not sure if she's interested in watching Limitless or not. So if she isn't I'll just watch that whenever. Nighttime is usually when my mom chill out on the couch and cut our coupons and watch tv/catch up with our DVRed shows. Hubby gets up early for work, so he usually goes to bed at like 9pm. When he's home that is. He works a second part time job, and sometimes he doesn't get home from that until 10-10:30. So on those nights he comes right home, showers, eats and goes to bed. It's great to have a man that works hard for his family.

Saturday, August 27, 2011

8/27/11

I can never think of titles for my blogs. So I might just go with the date as a title.
Well, we've been slacking the last 2 days on making dinner. Didn't make anything last night, it was kind of a find leftovers in the fridge, or grab something frozen or a sandwich kind of day. Same goes for today probably. Matt has to work until late, so he won't be "here" for dinner at dinnertime anyway.

We went to the Farmer's Market on the square/International Fest today. The Farmer's Market is every Sat, 9am-1pm in the summer. But that was combined with the Festival today that was from 9am-7pm. We just kind of went to get our usual produce, and to check out the stuff at the International Fest again. We went last year too. I decided next year we will save up some money and really make a whole day of it and go. You could blow some serious cash there if you wanted. Between all the craftstands and goods they sell, and TONS of food vendors and foodtrucks. I would like to try a lot more food next year! I got some delicious Tomato Basil Foccacia Bread from one place, it's SO good. We also got some kettle corn. Tried some free samples at a few stands. And then we bought our red peppers and eggplant. We cut and freeze (we have a vacuum food sealer), our own peppers. And we (mostly me)m LOVE eggplant parmigiana. So we have found you can peel, slice, and bread/cook the eggplant, and freeze it! So then during the 'winter' months, we just pull out a bag of eggplant, and layer it in the pan with the sauce and cheese and it's ready to go!! It takes a while doing all the peeling, slicing, breading and cooking all the eggplant. But it's SO worth it for that fast delicious dinner later on. And we found one great stand that had the best look eggplant AND it was the cheapest. Crazy, but awesome. They were only a $1 each, and at least a pound and half each. They wanted over a $1 a pound at the stores for them. Same with the peppers. We got our red peppers for 50 cents each. The store is selling reds for like $3.99/lb! Insane.

Other than that today has been a fairly blah day. Logan was on a 10 day round of antibiotics because it seemed he has a sinus infection. He finished it yesterday. I'm not convinced it's gone though :-(
His nose still doesn't look so great (It was REALLY red and sore, and he had thick, dark, drainage coming out of it), and he's still crabby as all heck.


*Sidenote-Logan just pretended to eat the pie off the tv, on Pajama Party episode of Mickey Mouse Clubhouse. So cute.*

Thursday, August 25, 2011

Dreary day

So yesterday I started my foray into this new blog. I didn't get to write much but the basics. Both kids are currently napping, and dinner is already to be put in the oven/on the stove, so I have a few free minutes.
Yesterday we had what we call ground beef and gravy. It's very simple to make, and fairly inexpensive. We just brown some ground beef in a tiny bit of oil until it's cooked through. Add in 1-2 (depending on how much onion you like) slices onions, let that cook a little until the onions are translucent. Then add 3 cans of campbells plain brown gravy. Rinse the cans out with a little water, so as not to waste any gravy in the cans, add that to the pot. Then add a little Gravy Master, and 1/4 to a 1/2 cup soy sauce, depending on taste. Stir well, turn to low hear, and let cook about a half an hour (or longer if you wish). We make wide egg noodles with it, and serve it over that. Pretty easy and pretty tasty.
Tonight we are having meatloaf, garlic mashed potatoes and spinach. I am kind of in the mood for noodles, and since I don't care too much for spinach, I might make noodles as an additional side dish as well.
We let Logan play at the play place at McDonalds today (my husband is the corporate maintenance manager there), because the grass is so wet/muddy at home. It's rained pretty good the last few nights. There's a hurricane coming, and its supposed to hit the eastern states pretty good. Hopefully not too badly though, because one of my oldest friends is getting married on 9/10/11 in NJ, so we are driving out there for the wedding in a couple weeks.
I'm excited and nervous at the same time because it's at least an 8 hour car ride, and we are taking both kids with us. Hopefully all will go smoothly.

Wednesday, August 24, 2011

1st Post

So this is my second try at a blog. I had/have a blog on another name, but have decided to start fresh. I will probably delete the old blog once I get the info I want off of it (I want to double check to make sure I have all my childrens milestones on there written down in their baby books/calendars before I delete it, so I make sure I don't miss anything.)
I had a hard time picking a URL name, but I remembered some video game my brother had played, called Cooking Mama. I've never played it, but anyone who knows me, knows I love to cook and bake. So i just went with 'cooking mama tiff' haha. And as far a title, i'm going to be the honest mom for sure. I am sick and tired of other moms putting down decent hard working mothers, and making them feel bad. Pretending your life, husband, and kids are perfect does nothing but create a misconception of what adult life is really like. I think it would be better for everyone if people (specifically mothers), would be honest about the trials, tribulations, and joys of being a mother (and/or wife). So I will use this as my outlet to express my true feelings about adult life. It will mostly be about my kids, but also about my cooking and baking and other things I enjoy.
So back to basics. I'm Tiffany, I am 27, married to my husband Matt for a little over 3 years now. I have a son, Logan who just turned 2, he was born on 7/11/09. Then we had our 'surprise' baby (unplanned), my daughter Meredith on 2/24/11, who is 6 months old today :-)
I have worked at several restaurants, but found my passion after working in a bakery. I later took a position as a cake decorator, which I found I greatly enjoy. I am currently unemployed after the bakery department at my place of employment closed down. I still enjoy baking and cake decorating at home, and have made a few cakes out of my house for people, including a wedding cake and bridal shower cakes. I also enjoy cooking savory meals, and have recently started trying to get homemade dinner on the table more often, and to expand our recipe collection and try new things. We still occasionally eat frozen/box meals and get takeout sometimes, but in the last 3 months or so, I think we (my mother and I) have been doing a really great job at preparing meals almost every night. As for the "my mother and I" comment, myself, husband, and 2 kids live with my parents. We had our own apartment for several years, and even had rented a house at one point, but after the birth of my son in 2009, which required an emergency c-section, my mom suggested we stay with them for a while, as my husband worked 2 jobs, and I had quite a few limitations, as well as a new baby for the first time. She later decided and asked if we would want to just move in with them for a while. It provides a great built-in babysitter (which was great when I went back to work and had to be at work at 6am-no having to wake a baby and bring them to a sitter!!!), and I greatly enjoy the company. My mother is my best friend. The kids also have the great luxury of enjoying the company of their grandparents every single day, which is awesome. Matt and I could afford to move out and get a place of our own again if we wanted, but our situation is just so great right now, why would i want to?!?? Who wouldn't love help doing dishes and laundry and cleaning and watching the kids and cooking! Its great! Don't get me wrong, I don't sit on the couch all day eating Bon-bons. I take care of my kids and feed, bathe, and diaper them. I just usually doing the cookies and dishes and my mom does our laundry. Which is nice because I suck at folding clothes. So that's us. And where we live. And what we do. Actually I missed the where we live a little, we are in Medina, Ohio. Lived here since 1995, moved from NJ.
Well, have to run for now, but hopefully this venture into blogging will prove to be more successful than my previous!